Self Pity

It is an interesting indulgence we have, this feeling sorry for ourselves. Today I spent the whole day feeling rather sorry for myself and in the end of the day, I have a headache and I am exhausted. Not working out very well this whole feeling sorry for myself. Its like I ate something which doesn't agree with my system and I feel bad.

So my poor wife asks me why I was wallowing in self pity. She would never say something like that. She would instead ask me what was wrong and I could trot out a dozen reasons on why I was wallowing in self pity today but the real reason, if we are honest with ourselves, was that we indulge in it. It is something we like. We like to feel sorry for ourselves even though its not good for us. We cling to this notion of how much of a victim we are and how unfair life is. And when I look back today, it is funny, idiotic and ridiculous. But for ten long hours, I was so convinced that I was this poor hard done by soul. Around eight in the evening after I had watched my thoughts for ten long hours, I started laughing. The whole idea was ludicrous.

Life is a funny thing. You think you have it all figured out and boom, one day you wake up feeling sorry for yourself. :)